Poetic Art
Sunday 18 October 2015
Friday 16 October 2015
Monday 7 September 2015
Saturday 29 August 2015
Tuesday 9 June 2015
Am I My Illness?
I'm crying for no reason,
I'm exhausted,
I can't do this anymore.
Am I a virtual image?
Is this all a dream?
Wake me up!
I'm tired of living this nightmare
and being treated second class.
You praised me when I was well
now you persecute me for my illness.
Am I not that same person?
You told me we were family
and you treated me as a friend
but as soon as I reach out for help
you kick me into the slums.
My tears flow with every word I type
and you never see this part of me
because you're in your happy, healthy home
while I lay awake, stewing, thinking, rehashing
everything you said to me
and everything you did to me
and I'd be a liar if I told you I didn't hurt.
I want to be strong
but the tears keep me down.
I want to stand up for myself
but my brain pulls me into a corner.
So I cry and hold myself,
trembling,
I hold myself.
I feel worthless and useless
because I cannot be
the way I used to be;
but I didn't ask to be this way -
I just am -
so please accept me
and cease my prosecution
Sunday 19 April 2015
Wednesday 8 April 2015
A Quiet Rebel Heart
my father said "to man up,
you're not a girl!"
what should I say or do
to a father who disapproves?
behaviours of a man
draped me in costume,
a convincing smile from a liar
resuming hibernation in my cocoon.
I shared my tears in words,
my angst in drawings,
desires under bed sheets at night,
and alone.
If today I could disappear
without falling apart,
I'd begin a revolution in solitude
and with a quiet rebel heart.
"Slap!" across the cheek
and caught wet-handed
for a sin I released;
a privilege never granted.
I wore such shame in my brain
of thoughts that sometimes haunt me.
"I'll stop," I tell myself
until the hunger consumes me.
I shared a virtual world
with strangers as friends.
my desires were their desires
too.
If today I could disappear
without falling apart,
I'd begin a revolution in solitude
and with a quiet rebel heart.
I cannot look back
with abandon or regret
'cause I've released the ghosts
and I'm free from my head.
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