#unapologetic pleasure

A Quiet Rebel Heart

my father said "to man up,

you're not a girl!"

what should I say or do

to a father who disapproves?

behaviours of a man

draped me in costume,

a convincing smile from a liar

resuming hibernation in my cocoon.

I shared my tears in words,

my angst in drawings,

desires under bed sheets at night,

and alone.

If today I could disappear

without falling apart,

I'd begin a revolution in solitude

and with a quiet rebel heart.

"Slap!" across the cheek

and caught wet-handed

for a sin I released;

a privilege never granted.

I wore such shame in my brain

of thoughts that sometimes haunt me.

"I'll stop," I tell myself

until the hunger consumes me.

I shared a virtual world

with strangers as friends.

my desires were their desires

too.

If today I could disappear

without falling apart,

I'd begin a revolution in solitude

and with a quiet rebel heart.

I cannot look back

with abandon or regret

'cause I've released the ghosts

and I'm free from my head.

from Bromance to Romance